Stay true to you.

I'm not "different" than everyone else. In some sense, we're all the same. If you know about the Evolution Tree, you'll get this. We're all of a common ancestor, and we're all human. We all have a heartbeat, we all live. We all have ideas and thoughts. These ideas and thoughts are most likely not a far fetched idea that only you have thought of. Someone has thought of this, already. For lack of motivation, or any other reasons, some ideas may have been kept hidden and unknown, but that doesn't mean you're the only person to have thought it. We all have common traits with others, and are like other people. We will have the similar, if not the same; shirt, style, haircut, car. Material things, of course. On the other hand, we will have passions, ideas, thoughts, wishes, dreams. Others may have these same functions as well. We all are different in a sense that; A combination of certain pet peeves, favourite movies, ideas for a future, etc. There may be combinations that not many people have. Curley Sue loves french fries. So do you. Curley Sue hates war. So do you. Curley Sue is allergic to dogs. You're allergic to cats. The two have similar characteristics, but that doesn't make you the same. We're all different and original, we're all the same. Your DNA has been formed in a way that will never be formed again. But, we are all human, and have the same mind. We will have similar ideas, and loves. We're just as different as we are the same in this World. Quit trying to prove to everyone you are different, 'cause frankly no one gives damn. No one gives a damn about your clothes, so don't dress to impress. No one cares if you have every Lil' Wayne poster on your wall. No one cares if you start a trend. Be yourself, be you. People will appreciate that far more, than your image of different. If you're being yourself, and you're called different? T-rrific. That person finds something about your true personality refreshing. But, don't try and convince everyone that you are something you are not. For then, you are the same as alot of other people. When you're yourself, you're more different than you will ever be while ATTEMPTING to be something you're not. Stay true to you.

Girl, where's your self control?

in my pocket.

Why do so many dwell on the past. I can't say that I've personally never done it, but I've kind of learned how to move on. How to do alot of things, actually. Self control. It's a simple method, but apparently so hard to grasp. Just waking up one day and saying, "You know what, I will not let this drag me down. This doesn't help anyone or anything." & do so. Self control is beautiful; Although, letting go is nice as well.
Spend it where it counts.
Don't let your past drag you down. I've seen this happen too many times.
Appreciate the present, and the now.
You can't change what's been done, but you can change what hasn't happened yet.
You can change your future and your present, by accepting there's no changing your past.
Changing your mood, your self being, by letting go.
I recommend it; What's done is done, all you can do is learn from it. That's all anyone can do these days. Learn. It's our main reason for living.

I want to feng shui. I want to quit sneezing and sniffling. I want to go back to school. I want to sculpt. I want to do Yoga. A wise woman once told me to sleep however, that wise woman only wants me to do so, for the possibility of going to school tomorrow.
/Sorry, Kell. My mother raised an owl.

Goodnight all.<3

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In History class, and other random conversations, the question has been coming up. "Why are we here? As a human race, what is our purpose? And, does every single person have their own reason for being on this planet?"
-I can personally give you my opinion, and you may take from it what you will.

I believe everyone here has atleast one purpose; To learn as much as we possibly can while we are priveledged to be on this Earth. & perhaps, some people have extra purposes on this planet. The thing they would like to leave behind once they're gone. They thing they want to mainly accomplish before their departure. I just want to learn as much as I can, create something beautiful from my hands/produce something beautiful and unique from my own body, and leave positive marks on the people I loved, befriended, hardly knew. Everyone. And to those select few, hopefully, I can make the slightest positive change on their life. I can only hope I continue on working on my list. I'm not afraid of dying because, I've accomplished so much and learned so many things in the short time period I've been here. I've learned enough for a few lifetimes, in not even 1/4 of one. I'll continue with learning because I don't know everything, nor will I ever pretend to know everything. I'm still learning and I'll never ever stop, not until the day I drop. & even then, I doubt I'll be done. If there is an afterlife, I'll continue learning there, for that is why we're created. In my opinion atleast. We are created to learn, to love.

Tomorrow? Beach with Kelly, some accoustic guitar, french fries. I hope so.

Where are you immune system?

I can't stand being sick. I really can't. I have no immune system, and feel so weak whenever I do get sick. It always hits me mad hard. Takes a toll on me physically, and then it takes a toll on my grades at school. I'm still passing all of my classes, but I'm far more capable than what I'm doing. Really.

I'll be seeing you-

I bet you'd never guess; I like music from Billie Idol's, "I'll be seeing you" to System of a Down. I bet you'd never guess that I really love fashion, but you can never go wrong with a plain white tee and some blue jeans. I have a thing for shoes, but if I could I'd be bare foot all the time. I generally see the best in everyone, but sometimes the "worst" thing about someone is what I love the most. For such a young age, I feel twenty years older than I already am, if not older. I think I've been hangin' around a few lifetimes, however. I'm nocturnal; Sorry mom, you've raised an owl. I love curly hair, but I straighten mine. My favourite moments are the simplest imaginable; Being pushed around in a wheelbarrow from my best friend, singing along with a guitar and just the atmosphere of people swaying along with the music, when people don't see how great they are, star gazing, light peeking through the window when I wake up, reoccuring dreams, not being afraid of death, red lipstick, sitting in a tree, & holding hands.

Repeat

I'm in a sort of haze lately.
-losing track of time.
-days are going by too fast, honestly.

I'm still mainly happy, so it can't be anything awful.
Goodnight.

TTFN

It amazes me how much I learn within a day.
Today I learned that I deserve far more.
I also learned that a flashing red light means to stop, and then go.

I have mixed feelings on my "age." I constantly feel older than I am, therefor I believe I can handle so much more. I act, speak, and think more intellectually than many of my time when it comes to the nitty gritty of it. I just recently realized how young fifteen actually is. Hell, twenty-three is young. I can't help but feel 5-10 years older than that, though. I cope with things beyond me, and understand more than most fifteen year old's heads can even contain. I love in the sense of it's who I am. I don't like it because I'm still in this little young body of mine.
Ah well.

I just ate some swedish fish candies.

I have the Red Hot Chili Peppers stuck in my head.
Thanks, Kell.

That is all for now.